"PAIN AND GAIN"

""PAIN AND GAIN""

Today morning when I entered in metro, I didn't get my favourite spot to stand on. So I moved to the centre place of two compartments. Three people(two gents and one lady) age of fifty were already standing there. One of those gents was holding one very thick medical case history file of someone. Anyone can feel the intense pain by just one look of their faces.  

माथे की सिलवटे जिस दर्द का बयान कर रही थी, वो कहना मुश्किल है । पर मैंने जो कुछ भी उनके मुँह से सुना, उसने मुझे झींझोरकर रख दिया । हम लोग अपना दर्द- अपना दर्द कहते रहते है. पर ऊपर वाले की बड़ी कृपा है की हम बहुत लोगों से बहुत बढ़िया है। और हम सबको अपने से कम वाले लोगों को देख कर के संतोष  करना चाहिये । और मेहनत करके तरक़्क़ी करनी चाहिए । मैंने कोशिश की है उनकी बातों को शब्द देने की । 

The one who had educational glow on his face with nice moustache and simple plain Specs, wearing simple Shirt and trouser saying to another gent who was wearing plain Khaki Kurta pajama, also wearing GANDHI'g style Specs with relaxo  chappals in feet, was looking very sober. 

"Sahab kismat KA likha kaun Badal sakta hai. Par jo Bhi hua Aur Jo Bhi ho raha hai bahut Galat kar raha hai Bhagwan."

The gent in kurta pajama replied:-

""Bhaisahab ab itne saal ho Gaye k ab aadat pad gayi hai. Ab to yeh Sab daily routine Ki baat hai.""

Gent in shirt-trouser replied:-

"Aapki Himmat hai bhaisahab, Aapko Jagah main Hota to Kab KA toot Gaya Hota. 10saal se aap hospital k chakkar he laga rahe hai. 

Pehle beech wala ladka Phir bada ladka Aur ab Sab se CHHOTA. Main Kai baar sochta hoon k Aapko koi AIB nahi, kabhi kisi KA bura nahi kiya, kabhi Bhi Maine Aapki oonchi awaaj nahi Suni. Phir Bhi aap itne saare dukh Jheel rahe ho."

The gent in kurta pajama replied:-

"" bus bhaisahab bus yahi Ek shikayat hai iss uparwale se. Kabhi kuchh Galat nahi kiya. POOJA Paath Bhi Karta hoon. Uske baad Bhi yeh Sab. Phir yeh SOCH jar sabr kar leta hoon k mere pichhle janam k Karmo KA fal hai.""

Now the lady who was listening to all this, spoke something very touchy. Wearing plain cotton suit no makeup just simple earrings and  simple Mangal sutra as a jewellery. Plain relaxo chappals were in feet. 

"Bhaiya, Jin bachho Ko janam de kar pada likha kar Kaabil banaya, ab unko apne Saamne tadapta hua, Marta hua dekh kar, jeene KA Bhi man nahi Karta, par kya Kare aise mara to Bhi nahi JATA."

She didn't cried but I can see the pain and sea of tears inside her eyes. 

First gent replied:-

"Main samajh sakta hoon Bhabhi g. Par main Bhi kuchh kar nahi sakta."

The  lady just nodded her head in yes. 

And second gent replied:-

""Bhaisahab Pehle beech wale ladke KA accident hua,ERVIN k chakkar Lagate rahe 3 saal tak jab theek hone laga THA Hum Khushh ho rahe the tab he woh Hume Chhod kar chala Gaya. Abhi saal he hua tha uski aag humare Dilo mein thandi Bhi nahi hui thi k bade ladke Ko cancer ho gaya, usne Bhi jaise taise 2 saal kaate. Aur ab pichhle 3 saal se chhote ladke Ko dimaag mein bhukhaar Chad JATA hai, AIIMS k chaakaar laga kar thak Gaye, par kisi Bhi Doctor Ko kuchh samajh nahi aa raha. 

Aur to Aur kal usse Bhi Doctor me jawaab de diya."

यह बात कहते हुए वो रोना तो चाहते थे पर जैसे उनकी आँखों का पानी भी अब सुख चुका था। पर उनकी बात सुन कर मेरी आँखें पानी से भर गयी। 

Now lady replied with all pain in her voice. 

"Jin Hatho se unka Ghar Basana tha , unhi Hatho SE unki Chita laga rahe hai." 

And she cried, she tried to covered up her face with her CHUNNI. But anyone can see and feel the pain of those parents. 

I couldn't heard any more so did alight on R.k. Ashram, took ten minutes to calm my self. And thought how lucky I am. I am nothing in front of them. So why do I complaint, that I didn't get this or that ? I have no right to complaint instead I should thank to GOD ALMIGHTY that he gave us this beautiful life. Everyone have hurdles in their life, more or less. But we should face them and try to live happily with our full strength and positive attitude. 

THE COUPLE

As I entered in metro today in morning and started my daily routine journey towards my shop. I felt something different, felt, that something about to happen. And in this feeling somehow I got to managed myself to stand upon my favourite spot in metro.  I was busy in checking my mobile application's and some of metro stations had been crossed.  And when metro gates opened at Kirti Nagar metro station, the loud voice of one couple took my attention. They entered in metro and found a place near me. 

A chubby girl who was in her thirties, wearing denim trouser with white-black stripes, full sleeves shirt, very little makeup, with platform sandals. Looks like professional of corporate world. And on the other hand boy was wearing loose jeans with official shoes, white plain, American-cut shirt with folded sleeves. Half shirt tucked in jeans, half tucked out of jeans. Half baldy with long unshaped beard. Looks like professional of UNPROFESSIONALISM.  

Both were busy in argument. 

I have tried to heard their talk and when what I heard, I couldn't stopped myself from smiling. 

GIRL= "Aap apna mobile kyo nahi 

             Dete mere Ko ? 

BOY= "Mobile mein kuchh hai he

             Nahi dekhne Ko."

GIRL= "Mere Ko jo dekhne hai,

              Mere Ko pata hai."

BOY= "Mujhe Bhi pata hai tumhe 

             Kya dekhna hai."

GIRL= "Fir dete kyo nahi."

BOY= "Kuchh hai he nahi is mein 

             Issliye."

GIRL= "Mujhe pata hai tum kyo 

               Chippa rahe ho." (With 

                Little but anger.)

BOY= "Aisa kuchh nahi hai."

            (Replied with little anger.)

GIRL= "Aap hamesha Aisa he karte

               Ho." (With more anger)

BOY NOW WANTED HER TO MISGUIDED FROM MAIN TOPIC SAID.

BOY= "Tum apni shirt KA button 

          Band Karo" (and started 

           Buttoned up her top button 

            Of shirt.)

NOW GIRL, who got FRUSTRATED used her "BRAHAMASTRA". 

With WET CAT EYES she said  very cutely, 

GIRL= "Aap Roj delete kar k laate

              Ho, Aur main Roj check 

                Karti hu."

NOW BOY HAD NO CHANCE TO WON THE ARGUMENT, SO HE SURRENDERED.

BOY= "Jaan Aisa mat Karo, lo dekh 

             Lo." 

AND HE GAVE HIS MOBILE TO HER. BY THE EXPRESSION OF HIS FACE I COULD THOUGHT THAT GUY WOULD FACE WRATH OF HER GIRLFRIEND IN NIGHT. 

And just than my station comes and I came out of metro, thinking, now nobody trust no one in relations like these. EVERYONE IS SUSPECT. 

FOUR IDIOTS

In AFTERNOON, I was COMING from somewhere in METRO. I had to CHANGED the metro at RAJIV CHOWK underground station. I was STANDING in the QUEUE, and I was WAITING for the metro. THREE people were standing BEFORE me. As metro comes, FOUR students in WHITE shirt and in BLACK trouser, mobile HANDS FREE in their EARS,in their twenties, appeared from somewhere and tried to BREAK the QUEUE and tried to goes BEFORE everyone else. I have STOPPED them and told them. ""YOU ARE SEEM TO BE EDUCATED, THAN WHY NOT COME IN THE QUEUE ?""

They didn't say anything but stop right there. After ENTERING in metro, all four of them started MAKING fun of me. I HEARD all NONSENSE words, which FILLED me with ANGER. And I WENT into ARGUMENT with them. It was

So FOOLISH of me because they were from those, whose cant be TAUGHT. So after INTERFERENCE of one ELDERLY, I did stop my self and SAVED  my ENERGY. 

But those guys went on and on. Which makes me filled up with so many mixed feelings, anger, regret, kindness, sadness, embarrassment   etc. 

I could just said only one thing to those before my station. 

""MUJHE MAUF KIJIYEGA, MUJHSE GALTI HO GAYI, MAINE SOCHA THA AAP EDUCATED HAI, PAR AB MAIN APNI SOCH PAR SHARMINDA HOON. SORRY"" 

After saying these words to them, I felt lighter. But main question is, why we educated people don't follow rules and regulation in public places like metro ?  After all they are made for our convenience. 

May be everyone in so hurry that they forget what is VALUE OF TIME. 

NO SMOKING

Last EVENING I was COMING home with my FATHER in metro, as we changed the METRO at Rajeev Chowk station, my father got the seat. I was STANDING and we were  having SMALL chit chat. When I did LOOK upon the PERSON who was seated next to him. A very fine GENTLEMAN, educated, clean shaved, wearing STYLISH specs, in his FIFTIES, seated with his SON, who was looking totally OPPOSITE of him, LOOSE jeans, loose t-shirt, long hairs, PIERCED ears, stylish goggle hanging in the neck of his t-shirt, in his TWENTIES. 

EXPRESSIONS on boy's face took my ATTENTION. Both, father and son were in serious DISCUSSION. 

Father was asking his son that he saw him SMOKING. And boy DENIES. 

In their words....

Father:- beta, we get very few MOMENTS  when we discuss things APART from STUDIES and career. 

YESTERDAY when I was coming BACK to HOME, near Dwarka metro station, I SAW you, YOU with your FRIENDS, one is GIRL too were SMOKING with you. 

As a your father, I don't know how to REACT ? Should I SCOLD you ? Or should I LEAVE it ? 

But as a your EXPERIENCED FRIEND, let me TELL you one thing. 

SMOKING in your AGE and at this point of TIME, when NOTHING is  ORIGINAL available in FOOD, will AFFECT you BADLY it can affect your LUNGS, LEVER, or so many other body parts. This is NOT a time to CHOOSE these HABITS. Although I see 95% of YOUTH is SMOKING, whether is BOY or GIRL. You all TAKES it as a FASHION. But no, it's not a fashion, it's a PREPARATION of DEATH. I never INTERFERE  you, WHATEVER you WANTED to do, I let you do. But this I will not ACCEPT, so please leave this bad habit. And CONCENTRATE on your STUDIES and CARRIER. I haven't spoke

With your MOTHER yet about this, and don't force me to do so. 

In this whole CONVERSATION, EXPRESSIONS on boy's FACE, changed DRAMATICALLY. Sometimes ANGER, sometimes GUILT, and sometimes TEARS in eyes.

I don't know what would HAPPENED next, I had to ALIGHT at my station. But this whole FORCED me to THINK about all these. The every WORD that father said is TRUE, I knew that. I don't know, what son has said ? But I SERIOUSLY want him to UNDERSTOOD his fathers feelings. 

In this meantime, my father was also trying to hear them so he got slight idea of what's going on. So my father also asked me through his eyes so many questions and I found my self helpless and unable to give answers. Just followed him to the home with so many unsaid promises in my heart.

LADIES ONLY

With FRESH mood in LOVELY weather, I did ENTER in metro in morning, today. Quite EMPTY one, though on office timing in weekdays. I got my FAV spot to STAND on. One 18-19 year old BOY was sitting their in front of me on CORNER seat. His friend was standing with me, both were PREPARING for some EXAMS, I think. Cool guy's were LAUGHING and were KIDDING in their own way. I was ENJOYING their chit-chat. In this enjoyment, no. Of stations CROSSED and SHADIPUR station came up. As GATES got OPENED, my DOG NOSE  filled up with ultimate FRAGRANCE of perfume/deo, my EYES started SEARCHING for the OWNER of that fragrance, and I found one GORGEOUS girl, 28-30 year old, in TIGHT, straight ANKLE fit TROUSER, wearing wills LIFESTYLE formal stripe SHIRT, a HANDBAG in left hand, IPHONE 6 in right hand, lappy bag on SHOULDER, loose HAIR, very light MAKEUP, SWASTIK tattoo on NECK and EYES on the SCREEN of cell phone, WALKING towards ME with full CONFIDENCE. I left some SPACE for her so she could STOOD there with me EASILY. But I thought WRONG, she just WALKED like KIRAN BEDI and just LIFTED her FINGER to that BOY, without LOOKING towards him, who was sitting in front of me for VACANT the seat. He left the SEAT, and stood with me with his friend. They were talking and as they SAW upon that seat, they LAUGHED, and one said to another, 

"" BHAI itne confidence k SAATH Aayi or ungli dikhayi k, main samajha k LADIES ONLYSEAT hai. Is liye Chhod de.""

I also smiled after hearing this, because I was thinking that they did because of manners. 

But it because of girl's confidence. So salute to GIRL/WOMEN POWER. 

And I request to all WEAR CONFIDENCE.

FREE WI-FI

When I entered in metro today at my station, I was bit SURPRISED to see quite EMPTY metro, though I didn't get a SEAT  but I could have STOOD where I wanted to. 

There was one healthy BEAUTIFUL girl sitting in FRONT of me, chatting with SOMEONE on phone about her SENIOR, who wanted to do EVERYTHING by herself. After SOMETIME she hung up the call, and STARTED doing SOMETHING on her BIG cellphone. While working, she just STOPPED working and started LOOKING here and there DESPERATELY. This SEARCHING something or someone GOES on, for a while. I couldn't UNDERSTOOD, what she was LOOKING for exactly.

And just than my INTERNET STOPPED working too. So I took out my POWER-BANK from my BAG, with which I have CONNECTED my TATA 3G WIFI DONGLE, and reconnected it. So I could got my internet working again. As I did that, I saw that GIRL looking over me SMILING sharply. 

And just than I got a GLANCE at her cellphone, and saw my WIFI name DISPLAYING on her mobile screen. 

She was TRYING to connecting with my WIFI, but couldn't got SUCCEEDED  because of PASSWORD. So she was looking at me very desperately for that. I couldn't THINK, what to do at FIRST,  but after COUPLE  of SECONDS, I DECIDED to give her password but in that time my JOURNEY has REACHED to its END. So just SMILED back to her, and went back in the CROWD of RAJIV CHOWK.

TWO GIRLS

It was beautiful morning today, I woke up on time and enjoyed it. Got ready at time and left home for shop on time. As I entered in metro, I saw one VACANT LADIES SEAT in corner, I WAITED for the next STATION, and when no lady came to place her right on it, I sat on it. And after COUPLE  of stations, TWO GORGEOUS, EDUCATED GIRLS, entered in the same coach, and walked towards me with attitude and confidence thinking that they got the seat this time. And before they say anything to me, I left the seat for them, and they both got adjusted in single seat because of their ZERO FIGURE. I don't know why ? But after looking at them, I got the feeling that I got my story today. So I took out my IPODS lead from my ears and started listening to their conversations. At first I was only able to heard " Ohh yeah! Mine too! So dirty! Wasn't hygienic !" And so many girlish words because of their  whispering kind of talking. So I did raise my HEARING VOLUME just like Akshay Kumar in ROWDY RATHORE, and than I heard the lovely conversation. 

One girl with stylish big GLASSES on eyes and wearing jeans and skintight top said to another girl who was wearing very thick mascara and Kajal and in jumper suit, 

"You know I want to marry with the boy who has lots of money and time for me. Who can fulfil my every wish. And he should be as good looking as me."

AND THE SECOND GIRL REPLIED,

"And I want to get married with the guy who WOULD BE smart enough to take care of me with his own family."

AND THAT IS SOMETHING, which I didn't hear in long time.

But anyway, first one smiled in reply and said,

"We will see what we get"

And they both laughed.

I also smiled in my tight lips. And thought may be they both get what they want.

In this mean time KAROLBAGH metro station came and TWO BOYS WITH VERY "ULTE-SEEDHE KAPDE"

And with ridiculous HAIR STYLE, and with no matching with these girls, entered in metro while talking with someone saying ""kaha baithe ho?"

And they just moved towards me, at first I didn't get what happened, but when I understood the situation, I wanted to laugh like hell but had to control on myself. But as I took step out of metro at Rajiv Chowk, I laughed like hell,the crowd were looking on me strangely. Those two boys were boyfriends of those two girls.

WHISTLING WITH RANGROOT

Almost EVERYONE like to WET in this BEAUTIFUL lovely rain. So do I. But NOW get very less CHANCES to have this JOY. 

I also LIKE to WHISTLE in rain. 

So when I was on my WAY to metro station in MORNING, I was whistling the DEV SAHAB's song "MAIN ZINDAGI KA SAATH NIBHATA CHALA GAYA, HAR FIQR KO DHUEYE MEIN UDATA CHALA GAYA".  I was so ENJOYING the whistling that I went very DEEP and LOUD that I got DISCONNECTED with outer WORLD.  SUDDENLY I heard the SAME song whistling by ANOTHER PERSON, so SURPRISINGLY, I searched the VOICE here and there, and FOUND one "RANGROOT" at metro station exit gate, who was whistling the same song and WANTED me to do the same(I knew it because of eye contact). We both STOPPED whistling and LAUGHED for couple of SECONDS and than again while ENJOYING the rain and  were TRYING to MIX our whistle SOUND with the sound of RAIN DROPS. We CONTINUED  whistling the same song for another 3-4 seconds and stopped because Girls were STARING at us. And both of us FOUND ourselves in little EMBARRASSMENT. But we both shook hands happily. And parted our ways. 

"Some people feel the rain others get wet"

""RANGROOT means new in force"" 

Picture was uploaded from Internet.

JUST THREE MINUTES

Due to some work, I was going to my shop in afternoon. When I reached to the KAROLBAGH metro station, my CELLPHONE vibrated in my trouser pocket, it was from some client asking for LENS REPAIR & CHARGES. After ending up the conversation with him, I saw, I have reached to the R.K. Ashram station, so I was finding my way to the exit gate because I had to change metro on RAJIV CHOWK station. 

Just than, SOMEONE touched my shoulder and asked me, "" DO YOU REPAIR LENSES ? "" 

I said, "" yes, I do."

He said than, ""Okay, what do you charge for the cleaning of 18-105mm lens of Nikon ?""

I replied, " it depends on the condition of the lens."

He replied, "" normal cleaning.""

I said than, " 500rs"

Than he asked me for my BUISNESS CARD, I gave it to him, and as HE READ MY NAME, And he asked me,""Are you that famous one on FB, specially on DPEG ?""

I replied PROUDLY, "OH ! Yeah! I AM.""(THREE MINUTES STARTS NOW)

He said than, "" Sir, I read lot about you, I am fan of yours.""

I just could SMILED back, and said "THANKS" 

And just than RAJIV CHOWK station came and I had to say bye to him with promise that we would meet up soon. 

I was in so PROUD FEELING  that I am THAT FAMOUS NOW. 

But when METRO GATES got open, 

I WAS JUST ANOTHER PERSON IN CROWD. 

The first thing came in my mind on that time was, Thanks my lord for teaching me another LESSON, that ""DON'T BE PROUDY, JUST BE HUMBLE.""

WAIST BELT

Today I did wear new waist belt, which is slightly loose due to holes. So I thought I get this done at shop. Let me wear it. But when I enter into Metro, there was a couple sitting in front of me, I was standing.
Lady saw my loose belt over my waist, and fun begins, because I saw her eyes moving here and there,
She whispered to his husband sitting next to her"" ladke ne kapde achhe pehne hue hai, par belt Dekho kaise latak RAhi hai" she smiled a bit.
Her hubby replied ""Kya kaha??"
 

She replied "are belt Dekho belt!!"
 

He replied "" belt meri belt""
 

She replied " are baba uski belt""
 

He replied "" kiski belt""
 

She said with little anger "" rehne do, baad mein bataungi.""
And than, that lady and I had eye contact for a fraction of second. And we both smiled clandestinely.
(I LIP READ THE ENTIRE CONVERSATION)

NO FEELINGS

 On the way to home, in metro at Rajiv Chowk, there was a family of four, sitting in second coach "Mother, father, and two son's age of 8-10. Elder one had some mental problem and he used to shout a bit after every five or ten minutes. His father who was sitting bedsides him, was scolding him but you know it's very difficult to control these kind of children.
Also after some births, there were three "VERY EDUCATED" teenagers age of 20-22 sitting and were busy in their daily chit chats.
I started noticing whenever that kid shouts, those teenagers search for the voice, from where it comes. In starting I didn't give a damn but when I heard the word "STUPID", those teenagers got my attention. I have started listening to them. And their chit chat made me angry so badly that I have stopped myself from SLAPPING THEM.

When they didn't knew, from where this voice is coming.
They were saying:- " what happened ? Who is shouting ? Is there any kid ? "
When they did knew that it was That kid.
They were saying:- " what the hell his parents are ? Can't they control their kid ? Why do they travel in metro, if they can't control their kid?
One very hippy kind of girl said "STUPID parents"
And when they knew, that kid was MONGOLIC.
They were saying:- "can't people lock these kind of kids in home? Parents shouldn't be travel in metro with these kind of kids.
Another girl out of three except that hippy one, she was looking decent one.
She said " Ohh ! He made me headache again. I am gonna slap him if he scream again. That kid just screamed...
Now the Boy who was sitting in the middle of those girls, wanted to visit that kid or his family, angrily, tried to stood up, but those two girls stopped him.
I was watching the whole scene, and wondering that what the hell happened with this generation ?
No feelings! No respect ! No sense of talking ! What to say ? When to say ? Where to say ?
And moreover if you can't share someone else pain than don't be a reason of pain.

I, ME, MYSELF.........

06NOVEMBER1982, Chilling evening of Saturday, around 4:00pm in evening, my Mother calls for Labour pain, when she was at her maternal home, which was situated in Gandhi Nagar, Delhi, just wall behind SHANTI cinema. The pain was so intense that my Maternal Grandmother couldn't took her to the hospital, because she was alone at home with her friend, who just came back from London. But my mother knew, that she was in safe hands, because her mother and her mother's friend were trained nurses. So with god grace and blessings, just both of them had delivered me with their bare hands in this beautiful world at home. My mother tells me, that I was crying so loudly, that neighbours got to knew of my birth.

 As day passes, I became one of the very naughtiest kid in our locality. Everyone used to knew me. I used to do that everything, I had my interest in. Very popular in girls too, because of my cute face. I was also very brilliant in my academic carrier. I have done some charismatic thing, so people from that time stills remember me and tells my stories to their kid. Life was going smooth and in fun way. I didn't realized at that time, but my parents were making me responsible and independent person secretly, by putting small-small individual responsibilities on my shoulder. All was good but I fell in that hole, for our parents were afraid of mostly. I chose some bad company of friends and got compartment in my most important year of academic carrier, 10th standard. Just than, life changed its track and I came into Asia's biggest market, CHANDNI CHOWK. At first, it was just "time pass" at my maternal uncle shop of camera repairing, because I knew, that I am going to join school again. But who knows destiny ! First I got compartment than re compartment and around one year passed in this. And on the other hand, I have started tasting "BLOOD OF MONEY". 

And after completing my 10th standard(जैसे-तैसे),I did my first biggest mistake of life, that I promised myself, I won't do study again. And will do working. But after one year, I realized that I was on wrong track and I started my studies again but through correspondence. And than, I did complete my 12th standard through correspondence school of C.B.S.E, and also done D.O.E.A.C.C "O" level and somehow reached to the third year of my graduation. I have also managed to do some crash courses for retail business. And my interest in studies, once again got alive. So from than I have been reading books for different-different subjects. Time was on moving so was I. I have tried my luck in various jobs like marketing, promotion, event, call center, and many more. Sold biscuits and namkeens on road, worked in night shifts in call center, did door to door marketing and some data entry work too. For that time period, I have left market for six months. But my destiny has different plans for me, so I came back in market with some new hopes and with new perspective towards life.

 In starting, I have joined my maternal uncle shop once again, but just after five months, I got called up by someone to work on his place as a "WORKING PARTNER". Bus phir Kya tha, bhagwaan Ka naam le kar chalu kar diya Kaam. Now it has been long 15 years since than, par Aisa Lagta hai k kal ki baat ho. Seen so many things. Been into bad phases of life as well as into good phases. What I have learned most is, never loose your patience and your confidence in yourself. Time will be goes by. But you remain still.